Category Archives: 2013

Love me some T Hall. :)

“Whatever path you follow push on to tomorrow
Love all, serve all, and create no sorrow
So many rivers but they all reach the sea
They’re telling me he’s different but I just don’t believe it
Love is the goal, yes and everyone shall reach it.”

Trevor Hall- “Unity”



Special Dimension.

I reside in this really neat dimension. Here, each desire is love-based. I haven’t always resided here, but I have always been concious of this place, and that’s what’s so great about being here now. I used to dream of this place. You are welcome here, we all are. Every one of us. Separation does not exist here, only Unity. ❤ I think a lot of people want to visit this dimension, but its so simple that it's easy to think that it's some kind of "far out" "unreachable" place that can't be grasped. But, it's not. Because I'm here. My ultimate dream in my physical life here on earth is to meet everyone here. But sometimes this place SEEMS scary. People here are open and free, and sometimes we make ourselves think that being open and free is a scary thing. But I promise you, it's worth it. I am so thankful to be here, and I'm so thankful that this dimension exists. Feel free to join me here. I Love you all, and I hope you are having a beautiful day. Blessings. ❤

A little coincident


I opened up my dictionary to the word ‘coincident’ as the first word on the page. I thought  it was neat because I’ve been doing some deep thinking about ‘coincidences’ recently. What a beautiful definition.

           coincident– adj. 1 occurring together in space or time. 2 in agreement; harmonious

“Coincidences mean you’re on the right path.”
― Simon Van Booy

“It’s hard to believe in coincidence, but it’s even harder to believe in anything else.”
― John GreenWill Grayson

“Coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous.”
― Albert Einstein

Rough draft of a poem I wrote for my Creative Writing class.


I desire to believe that we all have a purpose

A grand way of being, a reason to keep breathing

But lately I get a little nervous

Maybe breath isn’t really a privilege,

What about my conscious?

That voice in my head, my thoughts, and my awareness

It’s always there, even lingering inside my sleep with visions

I arise with the surprise of my own presence, always solitary

So today I suppose I’ll wake n’ bake, and get too high to reach me

If you can’t, then I can’t either. I’m safe here.

What about those heavy days when your thoughts are too thick to sift through?

But nah, I suppose I’ll keep seek a different tactic

Because I know that life is a sick view

However it’s relative, these days sick means both beauty and gruesome

Someone once told me that you perceive things the way that you think them

So I’ll try thinking that my purpose is part of the upkeep.

I always wonder where I came from,

The big bang, a spirit, or a bad dream

So for now I’ll eat, sleep, smoke, and keep Hoping

That my existence has a motive


Inspiration is a wonderful thing.

     So, I often find myself thinking pretty low of myself and my abilities to succeed in basically everything. When I’m feeling low or disconnected from others, love, or myself, I usually search for inspiration elsewhere, which is A okay, but I just had a special moment with myself that revealed to me that I can get all the inspiration I need from myself, which is something I’ve never given myself credit for. I’ve been writing for fun basically ever since I’ve been able to write, whether it’s a poem, journal entry, prayers to whomever , quotes I made up or found inspirational, etc. I have been thinking a lot today about my future and what my future career may consist of. My absolute biggest dreams in life are to become a successful writer and to spend at least a few years traveling and exploring the world. How these dreams came about is a story for another day. 🙂 Eventually I found myself outside on the front porch smoking a cigarette and flipping through a few of my journals just to re read my past thoughts because I hadn’t looked at them in a while.  I found a piece of folded paper tucked inside one of my journals, and it was just something random that I wrote down that really inspired me today. I’ll copy it here:

      “Love is like complete vulnerability, but the tricky part is that- it’s hard for humans to be completely vulnerable because if you make yourself vulnerable to a person you’re like handing them your heart. The struggle comes from the fear of what the person we make ourselves vulnerable to may do with our hearts. We are giving people the freedom to be themselves, by loving them. Another tricky part about it is that while giving people freedom to be themselves, it can seem uncomfortable to us. When the wo hm… just some thoughts.  Lark McQueary Feb. 26th, 2013″

      I’m aware that that’s not a million dollar thought, and it’s probably unclear to someone who didn’t have the thought and write it themselves, but the basic idea is that finding this really inspired me. I don’t necessarily mean Love as in just romantic Love, but any kind. It kind of goes along with the idea that the people we Love have the power to hurt us the most. It’s true. It also goes hand in hand with the quote ” The shadow proves the sunshine”. If you’ve never felt pain, had your feelings heart, felt heart-break, been lied to, than true, unconditional Love probably wouldn’t make us feel as whole. The shadow is being hurt, and the pain we feel after someone we made ourselves vulnerable to hurts us. The sunshine is the Love we give and receive to and from others, the Love that heals our hearts, our baggage and our long-lasting heart wounds. Sunshine creates life, just like Love creates life in our hearts. If we never made ourselves vulnerable to people, then no one would know who we truly are, and that would be a very lonely life. It’s tricky though, sometimes I see people avoiding Love, vulnerability, and basic connections with people because of how much they have been hurt. I can understand that logic, Why would you voluntarily give someone the power to break you? Unconditional Love is something that I  try to practice every day. Towards EVERYONE, including myself, under all circumstances. Whether Shadow or Sunshine. 😉

Not to sound sappy, but if you happen to be reading this and find yourself hurting, confused, lost, lonely, or just need a friend, I’m available. There is a link to my Facebook on my blog, so feel free to message me, email me,post a comment, or whatever you prefer. 🙂 I’m not a guru or licensed therapist by any means, but I care about people, and I’m more than happy to do what I can to be a ray of sunshine in someones life. 🙂

– Lark